Obstacles

Obstacles in the way

Everyone cleared

To find another there.

When will it end?

The finishing tape

Just keeps moving and moving.

I’m getting tired.

Each barrier I’m closed to falling

But, I must keep on,

I must keep running

And break through the white tape.

It all feels like a dream

A haze surrounding me.

My legs are running

But, I’m not in control.

I’m like a puppet being dragged around.

I will get there,

I must get there,

She’ll get me there!

16^th September, North Acton, London, England.

Loneliness VI

Aaaaaaargh!

Why?

Her candle burns bright

Beside me as I write

Her presence still so real

That in bed I can still fell

Her touch, kiss

That I need so much and miss.

Aaaaaaaaargh!

Why?

I don’t want to be apart

“I think therefore I am” said Decartes

I know that without her

I feel so empty and bare

There I am not!

Aaaaaaaaaargh!

Why?

22^nd August 1996, Uxbridge, England.

Love VI

You opened your heart to me

Gave me all that you had.

I feel so unworthy

Yet I know I am not

You love me and trust me

Like no other can.

It feels so good

To give and share

And while we’re apart

My heart always will

Be yours and yours and yours

But, for now all I can say is:

“I love you!”

19^th August 1996, Heathrow Airport, London, England.

My Dream

I’ve long had a dream:

Sitting alone,

Well two together

The World’s not there

To us or it….

I never thought it would happen

And yet as I write

I look across a table,

Not just a look

My heart burns with love

Can it just be me?

No…her eyes answer back

She feels the same

I can’t believe it’s true.

Then the sparkle

I see the ring:

My ring,

Her ring,

Our ring.

I don’t need to dream anymore!!

10^th August 1996, Park Royal, London, England.

Nxxxxx

A visitor to England you came

A Texas girl full of fun

You came and laughed

And had a good time.

A special friend

To a special friend

You’re now my special friend.

Your laugh made me smile

Your fun made me happy.

I hope you felt the same

And will one day come again.

23^rd July 1996, Uxbridge, England.

Memories

So many places

Visited and seen

So wonderful

Too good to be true?

How I’d rather be there

Rather than here.

Is my memory playing jokes

Or was it real?

Probably was for vacation

But for life? 

13^th July 1996, North Acton, London, England.

I've been thinking about labels.   We hear them all the time:  Liberal, Evangelical, feminist etc...  It makes me think.   Would I like to be in a box all the time?   Everything I say or think fits into that box?   I don't think so.    I think it is part of the problem, especially here in the US.  If you say you are a Conservative everything you think has to fit in that "box".   If you are Liberal everything you think has to fit into that "box".   It creates more and more division and extremism.    What is wrong with looking at every issue on it's merits and shock horror it might not fit into the traditional view that your party might have?   Free thinking is disappearing engulfed by constant indoctrination of the biased media.

The label that I have the hardest time coming to terms with is "Conservative Christian".   Why?   To me the two words just do not work together.   A definition of a Conservative is: Keeping to traditional values, not changing .   Back in Christ's days they were called Pharisee's.   Ultimately my problem with the term is that Christians are called to grow, mature throughout the Sanctification process to Holiness.   By definition this is a changing process.  A thoughtful process.   A process of acceptance and love.   This may means one changes one views in a "right wing way" or a "left wing way".   There is nothing wrong with that as long as it is done with a view to the teaching of Christ.   

I fear in the modern, Church in 2015 we have lost this and are looking more and more like the legalistic Hebrew religion of the time of Christ.

-Richard